all the pretty girls are boney
. Check my body in the mirror, naked.
. Weigh myself.
. Log everything in myfitnesspal.
. Look at thinspo.
. Drink ice cold water.
. Drink tea with fibre powder.
. Go workout.
. Remember what I want more than anything and longer than anything is to be skinny again.
1. Am i going to be happy with myself after I eat this?
2. Am I really hungry or do I just enjoy the comfort?
3. Is this food what I planned on eating today?
4. Will this food nourish my body in a healthy way?
5. Do I need a distraction right now to resist this temptation?
• wear a size xs/s.
• shop in store at VS (only online).
• look good in a one-piece swimsuit.
• look good in a small bikini.
• eat a burger and still look cute.
• wear a choker high on your neck.
• wear leggings/jeggings/skinny jeans without your muffin top hanging out.
• be told how skinny you look.
• see your collar bones.
• be prom queen.
So start counting your calories and workout.
Honestly, the worst thing about being fat is crying in dressing rooms because the cute clothes never fit.
if you binge:
- you’ll be riddled with guilt
- you’ll be gaining maybe a few pounds for just a few minutes of eating junk food
- you won’t fit into those cute clothes
- you’ll never be perfect
- your “ugw” will be pointless
- all of the restricting, saying no to food & working out will be pointless
- you won’t be weightless, or tiny
- you won’t get to stroke your pretty little bones & be proud of what you did to get here
- you’ll never love yourself
if you don’t binge:
- you can go exercise instead
- or make some tea
- you’ll feel much less guilty when you eventually eat a snack
- the empowerment when you overcome the craving is awesome
- you’ll be able to wear whatever you want
- you’ll get closer to your gw
- people will wonder how you did it
- you’ll be disgusted at other people’s lack of control yet so proud of your own
- you’ll actually look forward to weighing yourself to see how much weight has gone
“you’re losing weight”
“that looks great on you”
“sorry, we don’t have it in a size that small”
“how are your thighs so thin?”
“god, i wish i had your body”
“you must eat really healthily”
“this would look so nice with your body”
“you’re so photogenic”
“you’re really light?”
“i love you”
“have you lost weight?”
me: has lost 25 pounds, has extremely unhealthy eating patterns, hates my body, compares myself to thinspo
also me: but do I really have an eating disorder
